Christmas - which was incredibly stressful this year - is over and I am still feeling the stress. Maybe it's because it's January and I can't play outside, maybe it's because we are officially broke - no amount of coupons or bargain shopping can help. Either way, I am feeling really down lately.
My husband went out of town last week. That was a blast. During which my two big dogs attacked our little dog. She had a gapping wound in her side the size of my hand. We got her all fixed up, back home and recovering, and as I let her outside Thursday morning, I turned around to grab the garbage bag, and witnessed my two big babies attacking her again. I don't know what she did or what is wrong with them, but we can no longer keep them with Karlie and the babies around. Sallie, that is the only dog I've ever had, is the primary instigator. Our dogs have been part of our family for so long that I can't even imagine what it is going to be like without them. That's part of it.
My sister is not coming over on Tuesday and Thursday to "let me shower" anymore. It was usually only for about 30 minutes to an hour, but man that kept me grounded. I know that's part of it.
Our finances have really taken a hit lately. I'm sure I speak for every SAHM out there because you all know the feeling of frustration because you want to contribute financially, but it's just silly to work to put the kids in day care, and personally I'm exhausted by 5pm every day, so I don't know how working nights would be. I think it's even more frustrating when you used to be the bread winner. The bread winner - good lord, that seems like a long time ago. I think that is a big part of it.
So, BLAH, BLAH, BLAH, BLAH. I need to change my ATTITUDE!!!!!!!!!!!!
The babies are doing great, and starting to crawl.
I am looking into getting my masters online during my "spare" time.
Soon it will be spring.
Ok, I'm done with Mommy Blues. I don't believe in being depressed and I don't have time for that crap anyway.